Feeling like a new (clueless) mum all over again!
I turn 40 next month and my plan was to hit 40 looking like Eva Longoria! But clearly there was another plan for me and on March 24th this year I gave birth to beautiful baby boy - Dafydd Robert Haswell. My 3rd baby and child number 5 (for those who don't know me well I have two foster children who are 16). Although I had done this twice before (fairly successfully I might add), this time around I felt completely inadequate. I called my mum (what would I do without her!) all the time and in fact asked her to move in for a while to help me. I was a walking zombie and felt like I was constantly breast feeding or changing a nappy. Eventually my sensible mum suggested that I give Daf a bottle of formula at night just so I could function the next day. Let me tell you I have never felt more judged than when I had to make that decision. At the paed visit other mums gushed at how they easily breast fed and that their babies fed every 4 hours etc etc. My son woke every hour for a feed ...